Wow. Seriously man? It 2014 we're talking about!
Alhamdullilah im still breathing till this moment. Alhamdulillah im still able to see this world, to see my loved one. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah.
So now, I pray to have a good life this year and try to forget about the thing happened. Well, let's open a new book and write a new things, shall we?
I admitted that past year made me realize how retard I was. Quiting my school without even thinking the consequenses that I had to face. I regretted, really. Now, I try to be a good person and daughter, too, this year.
Last year, i've lost a lot of friend. A very good friends of mine. I disappointed, very much. Indeed, Allah gave me tons of new friend, as He replaced what I lose. Indeed, He replaced my lose with the good one. Even better. And also, I lost my aunt. A very nice aunt of mine. Even actually she doesn't have blood related with me, I still love her and only Allah knows how much. May Allah placed her with the goods. Amin.
People come and go. Thats made me believe that, people did go but people did not die. They actually be waiting for us. Just not in the same world. And it made me believe that, when someone is leaving me, I should let them go. I should, no, I have to believe that it was for their best for leaving.
I just have an interaction with one of my favourite author. Ismi Fa Ismail. She's kind. Very kind.
One of our conversation, she said, I was a doll because I'm kind. But then, it clicked.
I'm not a doll that very kind. I'm not a doll that very sweet. Because, a real doll is going to accept everything that happen in her life. Going to let everything go in her life without even cried over it. Redha is the keyword. But I am no to that doll. Im selfish. Im ignorant. Im not going to let everything slipped out of my hand except, had to. And my keyword is, Pasrah. Im not going to redha because I know Im going to cried over it.
This beautiful author made me realize one thing, I can't accept it very well when people leaving my life. I keep on thinking what I did wrong but actually I don't. I just don't accept the reality that people is leaving, sooner or later.
Wow. I think I should stop by now. I just wrote too much, kekekekkeek~
So, Happy New Year and have a nice weekend, Lovelies <3
Alhamdullilah im still breathing till this moment. Alhamdulillah im still able to see this world, to see my loved one. Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah.
So now, I pray to have a good life this year and try to forget about the thing happened. Well, let's open a new book and write a new things, shall we?
I admitted that past year made me realize how retard I was. Quiting my school without even thinking the consequenses that I had to face. I regretted, really. Now, I try to be a good person and daughter, too, this year.
Last year, i've lost a lot of friend. A very good friends of mine. I disappointed, very much. Indeed, Allah gave me tons of new friend, as He replaced what I lose. Indeed, He replaced my lose with the good one. Even better. And also, I lost my aunt. A very nice aunt of mine. Even actually she doesn't have blood related with me, I still love her and only Allah knows how much. May Allah placed her with the goods. Amin.
People come and go. Thats made me believe that, people did go but people did not die. They actually be waiting for us. Just not in the same world. And it made me believe that, when someone is leaving me, I should let them go. I should, no, I have to believe that it was for their best for leaving.
I just have an interaction with one of my favourite author. Ismi Fa Ismail. She's kind. Very kind.
One of our conversation, she said, I was a doll because I'm kind. But then, it clicked.
I'm not a doll that very kind. I'm not a doll that very sweet. Because, a real doll is going to accept everything that happen in her life. Going to let everything go in her life without even cried over it. Redha is the keyword. But I am no to that doll. Im selfish. Im ignorant. Im not going to let everything slipped out of my hand except, had to. And my keyword is, Pasrah. Im not going to redha because I know Im going to cried over it.
This beautiful author made me realize one thing, I can't accept it very well when people leaving my life. I keep on thinking what I did wrong but actually I don't. I just don't accept the reality that people is leaving, sooner or later.
Wow. I think I should stop by now. I just wrote too much, kekekekkeek~
So, Happy New Year and have a nice weekend, Lovelies <3
